December 30th

Well really there is not much to talk about this week.  Because of that I now am in trouble with Mistress because I did not post when I was supposed to.  Now my pillows have been taken away and have to sleep without them which really sucks.  But I can't  blame anyone but myself.

Well I did do something which I hope my Mistress won't be mad at me.  I joined a yahoo group called MakeMeStripNaked-OnCam.  I had to pass a test today.  I was on yahoo messenger and when the group owner or moderator Im'd me.  Then if given the order to strip, I am to turn my webcam on and strip for the person.  Well I was contacted and did as so ordered but was made to do it a second time in order to join.  I now am a member.

I hope Mistress is not mad with me.  Well that is it for this week.

December 20th

Well this week was not as exciting as last week.  My nipples piercings are healing just fine.The main thing is just keeping them clean.  So at work I wear a new clean shirt every day under my uniform.  Then wear new clean nightgown every night at home.

I did have a birthday and did have fun with it.  Went to a party and was craving to suck cock but really could not find anyone That was willing since everyone was coupled up. Left there and went to watch a drag show and since it was my birthday I was receiving quite a few free shots from complete strangers which was quite exciting.

I have continued with my high heel training.  But don't seem to see much happening with it.  Do need to get something to stretch the toes out.  The high heel pumps seem to be the ones with the most Problems.Other than wearing those pumps I really am not having any problems wearing the heels for extended periods. 

Well that is it for this week I hope I get to have some time to play with Mistress soon.  It is really driving me nuts not having time with her.

December 13th

Well it has been an eventful week for me.  Mistress had me scene with another one of her girls.  She has been one of Mistresses newer girls and has not been under as much training.  But we had alot of fun.  The best part was when Mistress suggested I rub my breasts the other girl felt it as though I was rubbing her breasts.  It was such a turn on.  Mistress then had me draw my A's while she watched it was hot having Mistress have all that control.

Later in the day I was able to talk with the other girl without Mistress and we both had a great time.  It was so eroticto give Mistress so much control.


Now I took a big step.  Been talking with Mistress for awhile about getting my nipples pierced.  Well I asked several people about local piercers to find out who was the best.  Well I was not sure about going to get them pierced with Mistress's A's drawn on my breasts but she insisted that is how I go.  Well the piercer turned out to be a very active person in the community.  She completely understood the A's on my breasts. She insisted to ask did I want the piercings or was I being ordered to.  I told Mistress was all for it but I was the one who wanted to get them.  So far they have been good  They ached the first 16 hours or so.  But now they are good but do notice more when the nipple touches something.

I also was told that I could have my pillows back this week.  Since I made sure to blog and this week I am a whole day early. yea.  Well to next week.

Decenber 5th

Well I finally was able to have a session with Mistress.  I made contact with her late Tuesday evening hoping just to talk with her.  we talked a little but she she was going to watch her favorite obsession which is English Premier Soccer. I later made contact her again after the match.  We started out how much she enjoyed my blog writing.  I then asked if I may have a bimbo stick which I knew she loved watching.  She finds it quite erotic watching other females smoking.  She then began giving me triggers that made me feel things.  One was her clamping down on my nipples harder and harder until she released them.  I then suggested using some binder clips or clothes pins with rubber bands. She then said we could make that happen.  She then had me draw A's on her bimbo's breasts that she owns. Then she had me go get four of the binder clips which we played with once.  I forgot just how Strong they were.  When I returned she had me place one on my right nipple. and I remembered why we did not play with these much it was very strong and was quite painful.  then we continued to talk.  She then told me to flick it.  It was rather intense.  Then she had me put the one on the left nipple. Then she had me light up another bimbo stick.  Then she had me grab then and wiggle them back and forth for 20 seconds.  Then she decided to have me tie a rope bra on.  She loves having me in the rope bra.  In fact I am still in it till the morning when I can remove it.  She then had me Flick them hard like slapping them down.  OMG did that hurt but at the same time it felt so good.  We then had another bimbo stick and then came the most painful thing.  She had me light up and grab the left one.  She told me to pull on it and when she said release to yank it off.  OMG!!!!! She had me continue to smoke and then had me grab the right one pulling on it and it came off before she told me to release it.  She then had  put it back on and pull it off when she told me.  Putting the clip back on almost brought me to my knees.  Then when it came time to pull it off OMG!!!!!!  I then finished my bimbo stick and had to say good night to Mistress for she had another soccer match to watch.  It was a good time

Well in 9 days Mistress is allowing me to get my nipples pierced.  I can't wait I am so looking forward to it.  just have not decide whether it will be a straight bar or rings.  I think I will probably get bars because I can wear nipple shields.  I can also wear stirrups so I can then hang things on them for Mistress.  Well time to say good bye.

December 4th

Well I am in the dog house again because I forgot to write in my blog.Mistress was not very happy with me and took my pillows away from me again and am not sure when I will get them back. We have not really played any because either I was sick or she was sick.

Mistress has increased my high heel training.  Besides wearing them out everywhere I must wear them as much as possible around the house.  I also have now bought a new pair of work boots with as big a heel I could find which were Georgia logging boots.  They are heavy but do have a heel.  I also have to where heels to bed now several nights a week.  I have to wear them on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday nights.  Not it does not seem like much but when I get up in the morning I can really feel it.  I have to stretch out my leg muscles to wear my work boots.  I can't imagine what will happen when I have to wear them 23 hours a day.

I hope I get my pillows back soon, with this cold it really sucks not having a pillow.

November 22nd.

Well there have been some changes to my training.  I now must wear heels when going out of the house other than to work.  Which I have been doing most of the time anyway.  But I must also wear them to bed three days a week Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday.  This is to aide in my transition to permanent high heels.  I so want to please Mistress on this.  I also need to get new work boots that have as much heel I can get away with.

Then Tuesday night I had the most erotic dream.  I was being escorted by Mistress to a public event where i was dressed in a latex cat suit with a corset and 5 inch heels.  The cat suit was red and black. The corset was black leather and reduced my waist by 6 inches.  She also placed a ball gag in my mouth and a collar around my neck with a leash attached to the collar she lead me around by.  She also bound my hands together but in front encase i were to fall.  During the evening Mistress made me kneel numerous times and worship cock.  In fact twice I was ordered to deep throat them.  After which my ball gag would go right back on to keep my mouth open ready to suck cock Mistress told  me.  I then woke up and don't really rember anymore of my dream it was so hot.

Nov 18th

Well I have screwed up this week.  I started out ok.  Talked with Mistress and she had me remove my top during a friends birthday lucky it was a kink friendly party.  The birthday girl got a real thrill over it.  But I had this incredible urge to suck cocks but every one was matched up.  So I never took advantage of this urge that night.  Mistress has been busy this week and has ben hard to connect with but was able to connect with her Wednesday morning for a short time.  She had me wear my rope bra that day which was no panty day which is always fun.  Well at work it really is not noticable except to me especially when installing a rig and I am on my back.  At coffee that night I wore black jeans loose top and a jackrt with it getting cold hear.  It still is fun to wear I also wore 4 1/2" heels.

Now Thursday I began getting sick and did not update my blog like I was suppose to and I had a tenative play time scheduled with Mistress and slept through the morning because I was not feeling good.  In fact I am now just starting to feel better.  I have received a im message from Mistress that I have lost pillow privledges till the next Thursday if I post correctly on next Thursday.

November 8th

Well this week I had a session withMistress that she had me doodle on my chest and her breasts.  It began with her taking me into trance and then I remember doodling on my breasts.  It began with placing Mistress's A's on first.  The more I doodled the more I wanted to do more.  Then wrote the words slut and bimbo. Then wrote Alyssa's Bimbo. Then she began making suggestions and i ran with them. I just kept adding things. It was fun and I had to go through the whole next day with it there.

On no panty wednesday Mistress had me wear my rope bra and thigh high nylons. Everytime I smoked the bra sem to get tighter and tighter like a big hug. when finished it went back to normal.  Coffee was alot of fun tonight even though i was not feeling real good.

November 1st.

Well this week was much better than last week.  Last week I thought I maybe on my way out.  It turns out that I am still very much liked and she has fun with me.  Saturday night I was dressed like a true bimbo.  I wore white thigh highs with pink bows.  Panties were white ruffled and lacey.  I wore a white see through tutu. on top I wore a white corset top, that was backless.  It really showed off my tattoo.  I also wore black high heels.  I recieve the best looks at the party and recieved quite a number of compilments.

Now on tuesday night we had a play session, where we had an intense ssession.  She first had me draw A's on her breasts.  Then she told me to get safety pins, eight in all.  I also was told to get ribbon.  I then forgot to bring something to cut it.  I was given 3 minutes to get something and ran over I was was severly reprimanded.  She then proceeded to half me pierce my breasts with the safety pins. She was wanting me to pin them together.  But doing it by myself was not working I needed at least one more hand.  So she had me pierce the top of my breasts evenly from the aereoles up, with the loops in the middle.  I then was to lace them togrthere with the ribbon.like a corset. She had me pull them togrther tightly.  This was such an endorphine high.  I was flying.She then took a picture and sent me the file and had me post it on my fetlife profile picture.  Then she woke me up from my trance. 

The next day At coffee I wore High heels with black and white thigh highs.  Next White ruffled panties a ablack lace skirt.  I also wore a white lace top withHer A's on her breasts in blue sharpie.  She told me that there would be a surprise.  She also gave me permission to wear panties but just to coffee.  So I was very nerous most of the evening.  She ordered me to shake my boobies once for either 30 or 60 seconds.  But that ended up all she had me do I was relieved .  Could have been rather embarassing and/or humilating. I was also very horney all day and even more so in the evening.  Everytime I smoked it got more intense.

October 27th

Well I am introuble with Mistress now.  First was that I did not post on time like I was supposed to.  But have had alot of stress since arriving home from vacation.  I had to back to work, sign up for school, and deal with a government agency.  Also all the while on vacation Mistress said she would try to play with me I brought with me the needles and ribbon and the pack of colored sharpies.  She sent me a text one morning to draw my A's on her breasts in three colors.  Then when I arrived home I could not get ahold of her to talk or play with.  So I thought she may be loosing interest in me.  I have been leaving my phone on all the time with the messenger program on which kills my phone sooner but willing to deal with the problem but if I could talk or play I would feel she still wants me.  One of her owned slaves has gone and wondering if I am next.  Which led me to act out by not updating my blog and I also changed my fetlife pic.  I took the particial face portion off the profile pic.  I do have another side and don't want anyone knowing about it.  Yes they will see changes in me both physically and some mentally.  But it has been gradual and they won't notice.  I have sent Mistress a pic of a hot scene but have not heard from her.  I was up again early this morning and she was not on line.  I will have to post and wait and see.

October 18th

Well another week has gone by on my road to become the best bimbo I can become.  Most of this week however I have not been able to smoke since I am visiting my parents and brother and wife.  None however smoke and they really don't know I smoke.  It something I really do not want to argue about or defend with them they really don't need to know about.  I live far enough away that we hardly ever see one another.  But I really do miss them and can't wait till I go to the airport.

Also dressing kind of conservatively for my mom is driving me crazy.  I just want to get back to normal.  It was nice however when we went golfing down at the driving range a worker was flirting with me before my parents arrived.

Mistress had me bring certain items with me here but she was not sure we were ever going to be able to do something.  I think she was hoping I would be able to smoke and talk.  I hope she is not mad that I could not do that here.  Though she does have alot of control of me and probably could have made me do whatever she wanted reguardless.  That uis it for this week kind of uneventful.  I'm sure next week will be better.

Octpber 10th part two

hen had me pierce the points of the A's on both breasts.  Then finally she had me pierce the nipples horizontal. She then would have me flick the needles in the nipples.  It was painful just not as bad as the clamps.Then she had me twist them 90 degree.then further.Then released them.  I then made the mistake telling her it was not as painful.  She then had me light a cigarette.  She then told me to pierce it with the right nipples needle about 1/4 inch above the rosebud.  As the cigarette continued to burn it began to get real intense as it began to burn me.  Then when the rosebud reached the needle I was told to remove it. Then instructed me to take a drag and pierce it again in the left nipple's needle. Again the slow burn began on the left.  When it was done I was instructed to begin removing the needled.  When done I was allowed to have a Cigarette.  When finished I was told to get the binder clips.  She told me to place one on nipples again and then one more on each breast on the inside.  Again I was instructed to slap the clips by mistress.  Finally it was time to remove them.The first two were rmoved one at a time.  But the last two were pulled off at the same time and was under very high endorphine high.  Mistress was so proud of me and what I was enduring for her,

October 10

Well my latest session with Mistress was the most intense we have had.  Was not really sure we were going to have a session. It started out talking and me showing her how I have been improving my smoking.  She then gave me a suggestion to draw her A's on my breasts.  We then proceeded to do some more talking.  We then were going to play with clothes pins.  But they were not strong enough to stay on.  I then proceeded to inform her that I had bender clips and that was foolish.  I did not relize how strong they were.  Then you have me slap them which made the pain even more intense. She then would have me slap them again and again.  each time I was to make the connection with pleasure.Then she had me take ahold of them in each hand.  Then instructed me to pull on them but not to pull them off.  She must have had me pull on them for what seemed like 5 minutes.  Then release then slap each one.  I was then instructed to light a cigarette.  The clips were so strong. When finished you made me slap them again.  Now the pain was even more severe.  Then she had me grab the clips again and told me to breath and then again and then twist them  90 degrees, and hold until you say release.  Finally she had me to breath take a hold of the clips and then when she said pull them all the way off.  Oh was that intense and painful.  Then she had me get some needles. 

I never expected that that. 

October 3rd

Since my last update I now have a dark red hair in a shoulder length hair. I also had a small discussion with Mistress where I wore my rope bra to work all day.  It feels so much different than a normal bra.  At one point it seemed to get tighter and felt like a hug.  Mistress asked me how it felt and that is what I told her, like a hug.  Another thing that Mistress has done is to have me stay signed on the Yahoo messenger.  She then talks to me sometimes throughout the day even at work.  I never know what may happen.  Also that same morning I also went to work in just my rope bra and returned home the same way.At least I had my top with me though.  Anyway I have to be going since today is no panty wednesday it is always more fun going to work and coffee.

September 26th

Well I am in big trouble with Mistress.  I have not been very good at posting in my blog like I should.  I was told I must post today after work today. 

Well Mistress today had me go to work and home again topless.  I don't even remember her giving me the suggestion.  It must be some sort of trigger that she has implanted in my sub conscious mind.  Wow she really does have control over me.

Now back tracking a little my last session with Mistress really was not a session more of a discussion since she was in a lot of pain.  I asked for permission to smoke like a good submissive should when talking to their Mistress.  She gave me permission since she is training to smoke more feminine.  So I wanted to show her.  She did say I was improving.  Then after awhile of talking she let me have another.  Then when finished she told me she had to go lay down.  We finished  our current conversation and I asked if I could smoke my last one.  She said I could after we sign off.  I really wanted to talk more and she told me it was time to go.  So I removed my top and teased her with my ample breasts.  Bouncing them and caressing them.  She made me pinch my own nipples.  I said that she could make me have a twinge of my own.  Finally she let me light up my last cigarette.  When I was about half way through she  made me roll it across my nipples and touch each with the cherry of the cigarette.  Then when I was done instead of just snuffing out she made me snuff it out on my left nipple.  It has nearly taken a week to heal.

Another thing that has happened is I was able to switch my gender marker on my drivers licence. I was supposed to go out but it got cancelled I think Mistress had something planned for that but it never happened.

One last thing Mistress had me wear a body harness out of rope to work and must say I am a little sore between my butt cheeks but much better today.  I also have to come up with something to make up all of this to her.  Still trying to come up with something.

This the next time I write.

September 19th

Well today was No Panty Wednesday and it was different.  Weather is getting nicer so not wearing panties at work is nicer.  Though today I also had a doctor's appointment.  It was quite a rush prancing around the doctors office without panties.  Then it was off to coffee anf had a blast.  Had alot of fun playing a game called never have.  It was quite the ice breaker really get to know people especially kinky people. Then it was home to eat and watch a little TV.

I hope Mistress is feeling better and we will get to talk and maybe even play who knows.

September 13th

Had a conversation with Mistress on Tuesday night and did not realize she put me under.  The next day I ended up going to work and home from work topless.  I must say it is exciting.  She also is teaching me to smoke more in a true sexy way. 

She has also told me to get 6mm wide ribbon in pink and/or purple.  This is so she can have me pierce my breasts into a corset piercing it will be so hot.

I did have a good no panty Wednesday since the tempatures here are finnally going down some, especially the night time temps.

I so look forward to my next session with Mistress who knows what may be in store for me.

September 6th

I had a session with Mistress which started out more of a discussion then all of a sudden we were having a session.  I am always amazed how she puts me under so quickly she puts me under.Ireally don't know how long she had me under but when I awakened i was terribly horny and had the desire to smoke.  She would would not let me have one.  I do remember getting very horny and began to play with my breasts and flirt with Mistress. Eventually she let me have a cigarette.  She then made the comment that she is going to have to teach me to smoke more like a woman.  Not real sure what she ment by that.  Before the next cigarette i had to draw her A's on my breasts that belong to her. During my next cigarette i continued to get horny but she made me touch each nipple with the tip of the cigarette.

Mistress then had me get my dido and show her how i would give her a smokey blow job.So i had togive Mistress a blow job while smoking. it was so hot.  I ended up smoking two cigarettes while doing it.

Mistress must have given me some more suggestions because the next day every cigarette caused me to get very horny and make me trace the A's on my breasts.

September 2nd

I know it has been awhile since I posted and Mistress is not happy about that and I can't blame her. I have not been feeling to good lately because of the heat and it has been draining me of energy.  Although as of late I am getting my energy back and have been able to have some sessions with Mistress. She will tell me I am to post not only when we have sessions but all the time.

On that note Monday night I had my first session with Mistress in awhile.  It was a different sort of session where we mostly introduced new inductions.  I have been given a pair of purple cuffs and a purple collar.  They are great for two reasons first they are from Mistress and second they are purple. It was fun but Mistress likes to make my cuffs come togethere and it makes typing tough and smoking harder.  But not as hard as when she hooks my writs to my collar.  Then I really can't do anything except knod to her.I then ended up sleeping in my cuffs and collar and wearing them all the next day.  Normally she has the induction end with me going to sleep.  But not this time because everytime I smoked that day the cuffs became all that more real and erotic. It also made me proud to be wearing her collar.

Now on Tuesday night she removed the cuffs and replaced them with a latex catsuit which was also purple and was very hot. Both looking and tempature. I really like the feel of latex though it was in tense and a totally different feeling. Being encased in something that is so skin tight. It would really be very cool to have it painted onfrom the ankles to the neck with a deep plunge in the front. I'm not sure what Mistress would do in the front and rear cotch but it would not matter. Then eventually we went to bed and by the morning it was gone.

On no panty wednesday I had to wear my rope bra all day.  Which was not that bad until I had to let her know I was at coffee.  There she had me standup and singing the jiggly song.  But luck would have it I was in the restroom at the time.  Though I did recieve a couple of stares when I exited.  The next thing she had me do was to flash my rope bra.  again I got lucky because most people where looking the other way  and only a couple of newbies saw it.  I was hoping for no more at this point and was rewarded with no more.

I am hoping my next session with Mistress will involve more pain.  For some reason it really brings me in to a great subspace.Not that I can't get into subspace other ways.  Like when she gave me enemas or the banana session which we need to try when cooler out again I hope.Anyway I look forward to our next session.

Aug 1st

Well last week I played with my Mistress and we had a session where she had me give myself a set of enemas.  The first was a luke warm water enema to clean me out for the second one.  Which did a good job in a hurry.  I have given myself this type of enema in the past when my bowels did not feel to good and just cleaned them out.  It actually felt good to get a through cleaning.

The next enema I read about and told Mistress about and I really am sorry that I told her about it.  It was a full two quart vegtable oil enema.  Which actually went it rather nicely and felt good.  I must say though evacuating it took forever and was rather messy.In fact it took till the next day before it was all out.  I had to sit to pee even because the oilwould escape just from the pressure to pee.  I also had the messiest bowel movements for the next 3-4 days before they began to return to normal.  Mistress is probably laughing while reading this.

I have learned one thing and that is be careful what you show Mistress for ideas for scenes, especially after this last one. Till next time have fun all.

July 11th

Well Monday night i had a play session with my Mistress.  She had me lace myself into my karanda harness because she seems to have more power over me.  i don't seem to be able to resist her no matter what, she has total control over me while in it.She had me dress nice for her, including makeup.  Then she proceeded to have me undress for her.  It seemed to please her.  she then had me go get eight clothes pins but i was unsure what she was going to do with them.  She proceeded to have me place one on each nipple.  They seem to be on good.  Then she had me put two more on my areolas.  then she told me to go get something to thread them togethere. and to add two more to my clit.  oh mygod that was intense. all the while having me light and smoke cigarettes.The pain they were causing was getting rather intense.  i also knew once they came off it would be even more intense.  Then i was told to light a cigarette and she had me roll the cherry from my cigarette on my breasts one at a time.  Then she had me stand up and with my left hand hold the thread and then told me to pull them off all at once.Oh my god i almost cummed right there and then.  Then we smoked again and thislead to her telling me to take the cigarette and dabbing my left breasts in three places outlining the A's she has me draw on my breasts with a sharpie.  Ten she had me touch each nipple with the cherryof the cigarette.  i was told to be firn when i dabbed my left nipple which actsually put out the cigarette..We then talked some more and had one finnal cigarette.  Then was told to clean up and put ointment on the burn.  Then off to bed.

i was so happy that she was using the clothes pins and not using the needles and cigarettes.that would have been ver intense.  But she seems to have it in her to do thingsat this severe of a level.  Then other times she justs wants to watch me deep thoat my dildo till she trgets tired.  i so love both, if she where to incorporate the needle with cigrette and while the cigarette burns i would would have to suck on my dildo.  i would not be able to touch the cigarette at all unless you said so.  That would be extreme.  But she won't it is a little to extreme for even her.  One of these times i will say something thar u really will regret.

July 7th

Well had a session with Mistress early this morning.  She was toying me and preventing me from cumming.  She managed to make me incredibily horny and then would noy let me touch myself.  Then i would have a cigarette and once again get even more horny.  i was so horny and then she ordered me to cum. i then proceeded to cum.  but now i keep getting hornier and hornier and when i get ready to cumi fall into complete relaxation.  i have no idea how long yhis will last but i am more determined to cum each time i try.  i was really hoping for a session in which she would inflict pain in some sort.  i have gotten the clothes pins she ordered me to have.  i also wrote about two scenes which were extreme and she may not want to go there.  i so desire a session in which she would cause pain and pleasure.  But i don't always get what i want or desire .

July 3rd

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July 2nd

Well arrived home from doing something totally spontaneous.  I took off to San Deigo California. I arrived home friday from work and a friend asked me to go and I said yes.  So off we went.  We had  blast going to the beach for two days.  Was able to show off my breasts and my tattoos and recieved lots great compliments.  Then spent two nights in the Hillcrest area and had a blast.  Then drove home. ???It was quite the weekend.

June 28th

The other night i had a session with my Mistress and it was a much more of a pain scene with got me into subspace.She managed to get me hypnotised in nothing flat.  She proceeded to gice me suggestions but really not sure what they were.  Then she woke me up and proceeded to give me orders.  I was told to get six needles and hurry back.  Which i love.  She then told me to place one needle in the top of my aereola. then the other one on the opposte side.  then she had me pierce the bottom of the aereola.  then finally she had me pierce my nipples vertically.  She then had me flick them and twist them.  It was great.  I was really worried that she was going to have me do the piercing and smoking scene. where I pierce above the nipples and place a cigarette on the needle and hang it across the nipple and the light them and just watch them burn up and across the nipple.  I was flying from all the twisting and flicking of the needles.  Then she had me draw them out slowly and the blood felt good dripping down.  Can't wait till the next pain play session with Mistress.

Jun 24th

Well Friday I went to a bar with friends to watch a drag show.  I bought new clothes and had my hair up in pigtails and received several compliments.  While there I had so much fun flirting with some of the guys.  I then went up on a dance pole they had and a couple of the guys were really rooting me on.  I even have a picture of it. It was so much fun.  I did however forget to text my Mistress when I got there.  I hope she is not to made at me.  I was just having so much fun.  I also was smoking sexy for a couple of guys on the patio.

June 22nd

Well looking forward to tonight going to the local drag show.  I get to be all dolled up and in my heels.I may even do a little showing to find something new to wear there tonight.  I always have fun going there.  I get to flirt with the gay and bisexual men there, it is so much fun.  Tonight will be the first time since I received my extensions. 

I was talking with Mistress a few minutes ago but she is watching a soccer game and can't be disturbed during it.  Will get to talk to her during half time though.  Told her I was going there tonight with friends.  We always have fun there and then go and get food afterwards, can't wait.

June 21st

Well i was a little disappointed tonight with my Mistress she told me to texted her when i went out for coffee with my friends and did not hear from her.  Then when i arrived home she was no where to be found online.  I was so hoping to play tonight.  Well i have no idea when she will read this but that is fine.  It would be nice sometimes to find out if she enjoys any of the things she is having me do.  I was also told to have electrical tape.  It would have made coffee more interesting tonight it was a little on the boring side.  Well till next time.

June 20th

Well some interestings things have happened the last couple of days.  I had a very pleasurable session with my Mistress two nights ago.  Then she gave me a suggestion to drive to work topless.  Which was quite fun.  Then last night we had another brief session an it again was rather nice.  She had me laces myself into a rope bra for the day and tonight when I go out.  Of course today has been fun since it is no panty wednesday.  She also wants me to text her when I get there.  Oh I almost missed this and she had me again drive to work topless and then drive home topless. 

I have also mentioned a couple of scene ideas.  The first was a video of a woman in a very nice rack system in which we she has her breasts nails to a board but since mine are semi plastic we would only be able to nail the area around the nipple and aereola.  It was rather a hot scene.  The next was a woman has her breasted pierced above the nipple and aereola and then a cigarette in each and lite.  I would not be able to touch them only the sides and bottom of the breasts.  Though if someone was to pierce the cigarette twice it would be almost impossible to prevent it.

I quess my top is causing me to get myself in trouble.

June 12th

Today was rather eventful.Mistress somehow managed to give me a suggestion to drive to work with out my shirt on and no bra.  I did not realize that I was not wearing it till I pulled up to work.  I just can't believe I left the house topless at lease I had my uniform shirt with me.  Then to my amazement I did it again on the ride home today.  My mistress is quite cleaver in her ways of hypnotizing me and getting me to do things.  It is rather exciting not knowing when or what may happen.

June 9th

Well today for some unknown reason i wore my hair in pigtails to work and all evening. I felt so bimboish all day with it in pigtail.  I do have one strange question why do they call them pigtails.It seems such a funny name for them. Also another feeling that has been getting stronger is when i am smoking i get so turned on and horny along with feeling very girlly.  Then i also get giggly and flirty.  It must be Mistresses training and i am learning to accept it more. I sure hope that everyone that is following is enjoying this as much as i am righting it.

June 6th

Well time to do a little catch up.  Mistress and i were playing and she was giving me a banana explosion which I ended up stopping because I became over heated I felt bad but my body was just not allowing it.  Well I must really beginning to change from some of the hypnosis because there are times i just can't help myself and feel really good about it.  Any way like smoking i suddenly begin to get horny and giggly just while i am smoking.  I also feel much more at ease flirting and girly.  Mistress seems to be able to take me to trance so easy now it is a bit scary the control she has over me, yet it is really exciting.  I can't really explain anymore, but if you experience it yourself you would understand.  I must say Mistress really worked out my tits the night before the banana explosion.  They are still tender but healing quite nicely. 

Well no pantie Wednesday was pretty uneventful this week which has been unusual but it was nice also. since I needed to concentrate on school work.  Well til next time.

June 3rd

Well Yesterday I had extensions installed in my hair and they were 18 inches long.  Now i have nice long bimbo hair in a chestnut brown color.  I love flipping it all around, it feels so sexy.

Then last night Mistress asked me to download Skype but it did not work.  I struggled trying to get it to work.It burned into my play time so Mistress changed what we were going to do.  Which trough me for a loop. She also is developing a real evil sadistic streak.  She commenced to put me in trance and while in trance she proceeded to make me do thing.  The first of which was the draw A's on my breasts to show i belong to my Mistress.  then she had me laces myself into a rope body harness which i still have on because i can't seem to remember how to take it off.  Then  i was instructed to get needles an was told to pierce both nipples.  Which really is not to bad in an of itself because they are so sharp. She then woke me out of trance and every long drag of a cigarette i would see all the things she had me do. The next things are the painful things.  Mistress had me grab the needles and turn them 90 degrees  Oh my not that was painful and having to hold them there while twisting the nipple with the needle.  Then she had me twist them the other direction and hold them.  I was quickly getting close to sub space.  Meanwhile in between the twisting she was having me flick the needles.  this just kept intensifying the pain.  After about 45 minutes of this she said it was time for a cigarette thinking a break i was so wrong.  After i smoked about a third of it she told  me to take a long drag and place the red hot cherry on my right nipple until you said release.  That was the most intense pain and having to wait to release it before it was dab it.  Then you right away had me do the left one and you made hold it longer.  They both are intensely sore now and if the band aides where not on every little thing would irritate them.  then you had me grab the needles and shake my boobs with just the needles.  Wow that was bad also now.  I was really hoping for the banana scene but this kept me off balance.  Till next time.

May 31st

I made a big mistake today. I had an appointment to play with my Mistress and was 3 hours late.  I am willing to do whatever i can to makeup for the mistake.  Mistress has given me a chance to reschedule out play date to another day.  But i feel i have really screwed up and must be willing to do what I can to make up for it.  Tomorrow i get my hair extensions yeah i will finally have long hair that appears all natural and all mine.  Mistress will get to see it on our play date.  Well i have to go for now.

May 30th

Well Mistress has put me into my rope bra for the day without me knowing that she put me in it.  Then she made me aware of it.  I had to wear it all Day long even when I went out for the night.  I went to a drag show and was really able to be myself.  That is my bimbo self.  I was getting flirted with and just having a great time it was not until midnight that I could remove it.  I also made sure that I have all the items for a punishment if she decides that i need it for a banana explosion.  Another thing that I am looking forward to is getting hair extensions. they will be 18 inches long.  Then i will be able to do all sorts of things with my hair.  I hope Mistress does not think I need the banana explosion as a punishment anytime soon it looks like it will be quite long an very uncomfortable .  That is it for now.

May 22nd.

Well my Mistress training must be working because my subby on Sat. asked me why i was acting like a bimbo.  I told to get people to help me.

Well I had my first play time in a while with Mistress.  It began with me at work and her giving me text messages to do. With the last one having me drive home topless which by the way was fun.  She continued to give me tasks while I was working on how work.  Like prance into the living room and bend over and shake my ass.  Then another was to shake my tits and then my ass.  But my room mates just laughed.

then later we had our play session.  she took me under before I even knew i was.  The training is really working.  Then at some point she had me trying to hypnotize  her but all it did was make me hypnotize myself.  I had to pierce my nipples with 22 gauge needles and she began to have fun making me associate pain with pleasure.  I must say I think I have that down because I ws loving the scene.  She had me twisting themm this way and that.  holding it whiled twisted.  I did managed to make it to subbyspace.

She also was using cigarettes smoking to reienforce my bimbo giggling and airheadedness.  Which really i don't really give any thought to at all anymore.  I can't wait to see where she takes me next.  I had been looking at videos also about nipple torture and metioned that the one video actually heated the needles before removing them and shehad me do it.  I really can be my own worst enemy sometims.  Tomorrow is no panty wednesday and we normally have a sesion before t but I can't seem to talk to her this evening.

There is still plenty of time.

May 12th

Well i must say i have learned a valuable lesson today, she can be very cruel.  She had me go get rubber cement.  She then told me to cover my nipples and aureoles with it.  Then she had me glue my penis to my ball sac.  Then she had me coat the top of my penis staying away from my pee hole.  then when that was dry she had me coat the under side of both breasts with it.  This area is what caused me the most pain when applying it and also the most discomfort during the day as well as pain.  I will always follow through on things that i said i will do.  She had me do all of that because i did not post on here for seven days.  But also because i told her on Wednesday i would post on Thursday on what happened on Wednesday.  She was really looking forward to it and was very disappointed when it was not there.  So now i am still suffering from her punishment she issued on Friday.  The underside of my left breast for sure is a bit raw from rubbing.  Well it did not help that she text me to hop basically with caused them too bounce up and down rubbing the whole time.  I hope she is happy with me again.  I know that i will follow everything she has me do.  I have really learned from this mistake.

May 11th

Today My mistress was not very happy with me and she is absolutely correct.  It has been a week since i last posted and we have had time to play but have not given her the proper feed back.  I hope this does not cost me to much. I was having problems signing in on my netbook so now i am on my desk top and no problem signing on.  Now Mistress has given me several assignments sort of.  And as usuaul no panty wednesday was the the most eventful.  I was wearing my rope bra and did not know how i ended up putting it on.  but i must say my smoking is about the same but now even at work I am giggling while smoking.  That has never really een like that i am sure it is part of my training.also on the way to work i stopped at a circle k for cigarettes andsuggested to a youg lady that she should observe no panty wednesday.  she laughed and said your not doing it and i immediately proved to her i was observing it.  Then that afternon after work i did the smae thing at a grocery store and said it to another lady and she said she would begin next week.  On tuesday Mistress had me drive home topless as i left work till i was home and it was rather funbouncing along with the music.  Then the one morning i was able to take my didoe completely in my thoat without gagging by the end of our session.  It seems like that when I practice also.  but i am slowly over coming that reflex Mistress.  Mistress I hope i can win your trust back without to much punishment Mistress.  I have no idea what you would come up with for that but I am sure it will be evil.

May 3rd

Well i woke up today and was hypnotized by my Mistress.  She had me draws large A's on each of my breasts to mark me as her property.  Then when i went to have a cigarette she told me to blow smoke on them and to my mind the A's suddenly appeared. wow what a trip.  Then she had me smoking a second cigarette and had me touch each of my nipples with the tip of the cigarette the first one i did likely and then she had me do the other one both of which i had to hold in front until she told me to touch.  The second one however i did more like she wanted and and I think she could tell so i confessed.  She then had me stand up in front of the camera and touch the head of my sissy clit twice.  Oh that was intense.  on the way to work i sent her a text thinking she was mad at me and said I could go to the restroom and do it over on the right nipple and she replied she was satisfied but i did not want her mad at me or disappointed in me.  She proceeded to tell me if i must go ahead but then said do it two times.  wow they were sensitive all day and even felt them in the sun when they were not rubbing on the shirt.  Also all day i have been tracing the A's when i am alone and not doing anything and feel the heat of the cigarette all over again then in a little while get so turned on.  How strange is that.  Anyway i hope that stops soon because every time it seems to grow in intensity.  I'm wondering when she is going to start having me play with needles next.  She seems to be growing in her ability to be evil.  Not sure if that is a good thing yet but it sure has been exciting and erotic.

May 2nd

Well today was no panty Wednesday and had lots of fun.  Besides not wearing panties my Mistress made me wear a rope bra all day and it had me so turned on today it was cruel.  She also had me touch one of my cigarettes to my nipple to make it sensitive all day on my uniform shirt.  But I must have touched it to likely and it really did not work it fact there was not even a mark on them and she told me it was a mistake.  If she was here or i was there it would not have happened.  I really don't want to disappoint her again.  I will just have to almost rub the nipple next time, instead of just touching it.  I have learned my mistake and need to make her happy.  She also made me bend over and wiggle my ass and giggle while it did it and did not hesitate doing it. That was exciting.

April 29th

Mistress has made me lace myself into my karanda harness.  I was not able to remove it till the next morning.  I was forced to wear it all day and then sleep in it.  I was then given a suggestion that during the hockey game every goal I would experience an orgasm.  Then today at work she had me do several things.  The one I was lucky on was to jiggle my breasts and sing it is jiggle time out load.  Lucky for me there was no one in the shop at the time.  Mistress is getting very bold and evil with her suggestions that it is really beginning to really scare me.  I know I was encouraging it, but now I was hoping to curb the bold suggestions and get back to some more play.

April 27th

Well my mistress has increased her grip on me.  She has strengthened her ability to make me do things from texts msgs.  Which is both frightening and exciting.  She is also finding her evil side which she was not using in the beginning.  I am wondering if that was a ploy to lure me in.  Probably not.  She has also mentioned to me the use of needles in play, that really excites me.  But I am not sure how she plans on using them.  She also wants me to have clothes pins available which is always fun.  So i will make sure they are in a place which i have easy access to them because i never know what she will do.  She has been really mixing them up lately.  I have also changed my hair cut a little but she did not seem to happy because it had curls so I will have to have it straight the next time.  Though I think she liked the purple streak but not sure i think it is perfect for a bimbo.

April 24th

Well today Mistress made me wear nylons under my work uniform.  Which seem silly since I am a girl at work anyway.  However she must have attached a suggestion to them because while at work i seemed more giggly and more air headed then normal today.  I also texted her when i left for work and when i arrived at work.  I was trying to encourage her to give me more suggestions.  We have begun using texted msg. for suggestions. She eventually did send one and had me go to the restroom to play with my breasts for 2 minutes and i rolled my nipples between my index finger and thumb. the nipples wee so sensative for about and hour just rubbing on the inside of my shirt.  I also hope that reading about this will encourage her with her suggestions especially since tomorrow evening i will not be wearing panties since it is no panty wednesday but I will be at a coffee with friends. I will let you all know how it goes.

Play Session

Mistress began playing with me late Sunday night, and into the morning.  It had been the first real play session we have had in while.  She made me sleep in my Karanda harness and was able to remove it in the morning.  She also re-enforced several of my suggestions including one that makes me obey her texts without question.  Then she told me she really wants to play with me in person which really gets me turned on and excited.  Just not sure how I will be able to make that happen yet.  Then we began to talk about more involved scenes.  She wants to be able to bind me up and have her way with me and possibly service other also.  She also wants to play pierce my breasts with rows of needles and then run ribbon through them.  Then I was trying to entice her to play more but she said she had to do some work.  This morning she was having me smoke when she ordered me to touch my right nipple with my own cigarette and could not stop myself but she was gentle.  I had so much fun playing with Mistress.

Failure to Post

Mistress was not to happy with me not posting since I do get rather turned on when I post.  So she has had be lace myself into my Karada harness before I am posting this.  It is to remind me who owns me.  Also to remind me that I must obey her at all times even if I have computer problems.  She is so correct and I will do my best not to disappoint her in the future.

Dildo Training

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Wearing a Karada

This morning I was talking to my Mistress and had not talked to her for awhile since she was sick.  While we were talking she put me under as she so often does to advance my bimbo training.  Well when I came to she had me wearing a Karada.  It is a rope body harness and can be worn under clothes.  Well currently I am still in mine since for some reason I can't remember how to untie it.  I am hoping that I learn soon how to get out of it.  Along with the harness she has had me draw with a sharpie two large A's on my breasts to remind me who owns them.  Every movement I feel it over my entire torso .  She is quite the cleaver Mistress.  I have since come home from work and looked up how to tie these and I am so glad that I did not have a longer rope or it would have been more confining.  Well that will probably happen another day.  Anyway the more I move the more turned on I get.  I truly wonder what is in store for me in the future.  I am excited and scared at the same time.  I like experiencing new things but sooner or later I will be found out I am sure.  She will make sure of it that I am sure about.  I just hope I remember how to untie the knots soon.  Hypnosis is truly and evil thing and extremely fun at the same time. 

Friday Driving

Friday my Mistress gave me a suggestion to expose my breasts while driving and it was quite fun.  Going from home to my therapist during rush hour traffic I completely exposed my breasts and received a number of looks from men.  They were trying to keep up with me trying to get looks at me.  I was glad that my sun glasses were on so they really could not see who I was .  It also was very empwering to be just myself while doing this.  It makes me really work the guys over showing them something that they can not have.  I did have to make sure there were no police I really did not want to be pulled over for exposing myself.  On top if it my Mistress made me draw Capital A's on my breasts so I would know who owns them.  What really was exciting is that I never know what I will be doing until she tells me.  I just love how she makes me do things and I just can't resist her.  Though I am sure one day she may go to far but just not sure what would be to far since I have not given her any limits to what I am willing to do.  Though she really likes to make me draw A's on my breasts quite a bit. 

Nail salon and shopping

Well hello again,  this last weekend Mistress choose a new nail polish for me to wear which we both agreed would be more bimbo.The color is a shade of pink from OPI called "Pedal faster Suzi".  I really like it and have been given several compliments.  But I must admit while shopping for it I continued to get happier. giggling more and just having a good time.  They were very nice to me at the salon.  I was infectous Mistress oh there is a big word.  Then I wanted to go shopping really bad and was having fun until my subby called me with car trouble.  At which time I had somee items picked out but was unable to return.
While in the mall i was getting lots of stares not only from men but 3-4 women staring me up and down.  It is good to be me and not worry about what others might be thinking or doing.
I must say though I do have much more fun while shopping.

No panty Wednesday

Today my Mistress made bind my sissy clit up with thin rope and pull back between my ass cheeks and then make a rope harness like a throng.  Then i had to smire rubber cemet over my sissy clit and let it dry while online with her.  I then had to go to work this way on no panty wednesday.  It was very hard to concetrate while bound like this and now I can't masterbate at all for it is to sore from being trussed up for several hours.  I was also to inform two people about no panty wednesday one girl and one guy and did so at a adult novelty store and then thought it was wonderful and will particiate every week from now on.  I was so worried today at work that someone would see the rope thong on me.  I was a good bimbo for my Mistress.

Begining day one

Well lets see how we should start.  I was attracted to hypnosis and found someone on line that was willing to be my mentor and I her subject.  I was fancinated by hypnosis and what it could truely do.  I was doing some self hypnosis to help me relax.  I was also fascinated by bimbo girls and the fun they seem to have so we have begun a journey and see where it takes us.It has been upto now pretty fun and scary at the same time I am amazed how easily she can put me into trance.  I hope she is likeing this blog since it was her idea.