October 27th

Well I am introuble with Mistress now.  First was that I did not post on time like I was supposed to.  But have had alot of stress since arriving home from vacation.  I had to back to work, sign up for school, and deal with a government agency.  Also all the while on vacation Mistress said she would try to play with me I brought with me the needles and ribbon and the pack of colored sharpies.  She sent me a text one morning to draw my A's on her breasts in three colors.  Then when I arrived home I could not get ahold of her to talk or play with.  So I thought she may be loosing interest in me.  I have been leaving my phone on all the time with the messenger program on which kills my phone sooner but willing to deal with the problem but if I could talk or play I would feel she still wants me.  One of her owned slaves has gone and wondering if I am next.  Which led me to act out by not updating my blog and I also changed my fetlife pic.  I took the particial face portion off the profile pic.  I do have another side and don't want anyone knowing about it.  Yes they will see changes in me both physically and some mentally.  But it has been gradual and they won't notice.  I have sent Mistress a pic of a hot scene but have not heard from her.  I was up again early this morning and she was not on line.  I will have to post and wait and see.

October 18th

Well another week has gone by on my road to become the best bimbo I can become.  Most of this week however I have not been able to smoke since I am visiting my parents and brother and wife.  None however smoke and they really don't know I smoke.  It something I really do not want to argue about or defend with them they really don't need to know about.  I live far enough away that we hardly ever see one another.  But I really do miss them and can't wait till I go to the airport.

Also dressing kind of conservatively for my mom is driving me crazy.  I just want to get back to normal.  It was nice however when we went golfing down at the driving range a worker was flirting with me before my parents arrived.

Mistress had me bring certain items with me here but she was not sure we were ever going to be able to do something.  I think she was hoping I would be able to smoke and talk.  I hope she is not mad that I could not do that here.  Though she does have alot of control of me and probably could have made me do whatever she wanted reguardless.  That uis it for this week kind of uneventful.  I'm sure next week will be better.

Octpber 10th part two

hen had me pierce the points of the A's on both breasts.  Then finally she had me pierce the nipples horizontal. She then would have me flick the needles in the nipples.  It was painful just not as bad as the clamps.Then she had me twist them 90 degree.then further.Then released them.  I then made the mistake telling her it was not as painful.  She then had me light a cigarette.  She then told me to pierce it with the right nipples needle about 1/4 inch above the rosebud.  As the cigarette continued to burn it began to get real intense as it began to burn me.  Then when the rosebud reached the needle I was told to remove it. Then instructed me to take a drag and pierce it again in the left nipple's needle. Again the slow burn began on the left.  When it was done I was instructed to begin removing the needled.  When done I was allowed to have a Cigarette.  When finished I was told to get the binder clips.  She told me to place one on nipples again and then one more on each breast on the inside.  Again I was instructed to slap the clips by mistress.  Finally it was time to remove them.The first two were rmoved one at a time.  But the last two were pulled off at the same time and was under very high endorphine high.  Mistress was so proud of me and what I was enduring for her,

October 10

Well my latest session with Mistress was the most intense we have had.  Was not really sure we were going to have a session. It started out talking and me showing her how I have been improving my smoking.  She then gave me a suggestion to draw her A's on my breasts.  We then proceeded to do some more talking.  We then were going to play with clothes pins.  But they were not strong enough to stay on.  I then proceeded to inform her that I had bender clips and that was foolish.  I did not relize how strong they were.  Then you have me slap them which made the pain even more intense. She then would have me slap them again and again.  each time I was to make the connection with pleasure.Then she had me take ahold of them in each hand.  Then instructed me to pull on them but not to pull them off.  She must have had me pull on them for what seemed like 5 minutes.  Then release then slap each one.  I was then instructed to light a cigarette.  The clips were so strong. When finished you made me slap them again.  Now the pain was even more severe.  Then she had me grab the clips again and told me to breath and then again and then twist them  90 degrees, and hold until you say release.  Finally she had me to breath take a hold of the clips and then when she said pull them all the way off.  Oh was that intense and painful.  Then she had me get some needles. 

I never expected that that. 

October 3rd

Since my last update I now have a dark red hair in a shoulder length hair. I also had a small discussion with Mistress where I wore my rope bra to work all day.  It feels so much different than a normal bra.  At one point it seemed to get tighter and felt like a hug.  Mistress asked me how it felt and that is what I told her, like a hug.  Another thing that Mistress has done is to have me stay signed on the Yahoo messenger.  She then talks to me sometimes throughout the day even at work.  I never know what may happen.  Also that same morning I also went to work in just my rope bra and returned home the same way.At least I had my top with me though.  Anyway I have to be going since today is no panty wednesday it is always more fun going to work and coffee.