June 4th No Pantie Wednesday

Well today Goddess wanted to where my new large Pink Crystal Butt Plug.  I was to insert it at midnight.  It did take a little more effort than the small one.  It also was more than double the weight.  Well during the night while sleeping it was trying to slip inside. So I removed it for awhile then reinserted it for the day at work.  Since it was heavier it never tried to slip inside.  Must have been just while laying on my side the weight did not keep it from sliding in during the night. It seems comfortable while wearing it.  The whole time all I could think about was Goddess and how I serve and how she owns me.

I so look forward to more advance training for Goddess.  She is the most wonderful Goddess.  I so look forward to my continued training.  Though sometimes I wonder where she is going to take me I do so love not knowing.  I just wish we could have our time like we use to.  Well until Sunday I hope Goddess is happy with me.

May 26th

Well the weekend is coming to and end.  I must post to my blog as I must do as Goddess commands me to do.It was a different week, as always I have to wear my new Pink Crystal Butt Plug on No Pantie Wednesday.  I was instructed to have it in place just after Midnight for the start of No Pantie Wednesday this week by Goddess.  It was going good as normal but in the morning at work it was trying to slip all the way inside of me.  I think wearing my other butt plug to sleep all the time in my butt is getting stretched out from my original self so it is easier to insert.  Since the Pink Crystal Butt Plug is so small it is actually was slipping inside when it should stay on the outside. So I had to remove it and go without the rest of the day for fear it would slide all the way inside and get stuck.  When I talked to Goddess later I told her about what had happen and that I would need to get the larger one.  She agreed and would need to save and get it soon.  I then told Goddess that I would be ordering it that night.  This made Goddess very happy and me to because I would be able to wear the Pink Crystal Butt Plug again as Goddess ordered.  Though now it would be larger and heavier.  It will probably take some time getting use to.  The small one was so easy since I had been wearing a larger one to bed almost nightly, and the small Pink Crystal Butt Plug was smaller it just slipped in.

Now I did get to have a session with Goddess this week.  It was a group session with another submissive on Skye and yahoo im.  We did not do a lot except play with ourselves and smoke, it was rather fun though. I do look forward to my next session with Goddess.  I hope it will be more of a one on one next time but if Goddess wants it to be a three way again I would be open. I would be open even if it was another Domme if Goddess asked.

Well I look forward to the up coming week.

May 18th

Well it another week of training. Goddess has been continually quizzing me a couple of phrases.  She says "something bimbo knows" and I reply cravings grow.  That is the craving to please Goddess, to want to pleasure male cocks, to become more girly girl, giggly, horny, sexy, shapelier, glammy, and obedient to to Goddess.  We did have a session Friday night but I don't think we played because I did not find and remnants of it in the morning.  So it must have been training for the most part.

I know there is something that I am to be adding to my post but I just can't think of it.  I don't think I was to remember doing it.  Goddess will probably need to re-enforce that some how.  Oh how I want to please goddess.  She did have me do two things this week.  First was wear my 'Pink Crystal Butt Plug all day on No Pantie Wednesday.  Which I proceeded to wear the rest of the night and into the next day till noon.  Thursday I had to wear my rope bra all day and was told to make it tight.  Then Saturday night I was to wear my Pink Crystal Butt Plug that night.  Goddess is really liking the new plug.  I'm sure it will not be long before I will be buying to larger one.

Goddess is so happy with my success I am having at the gym.  I am so happy myself.  I can't wait for more results it just motivates me more.  I sure hope I get to play with Goddess soon.  Till next week.

It really is bugging me that I know I am to post something with this weeks blog but can't remember what.  I am sure Goddess will make sure I remember.

May 11th

This week Mistress has been very visible to me.  I was hoping to talk with her before Wednesday but with my computer problems was not able to.  So I wore my jeweled butt plug all day again on No Panty Wednesday.  Hopefully Mistress will be pleased.  At least this time I was not as raw.

I will comment more to this post on Sunday.

May 4th

Well Mistress is not going to be very happy with me. This post is quit late.  I have be having a number of issues with my computer.  I believe I have them all worked out now.  Even though this is for last week I know I have to still post again on Sunday.

As for last week it was fun. I am now wearing Mistress's A's now for over a week and they are beginning to feel more comfortable.  What was fun last week was wearing my new jeweled butt plug.  I had made a comment to Mistress and I ended up wearing it all day and evening on No Pantie Wednesday.  It was fun knowing I was doing for Mistress.  However I found that I had some hairs around my backdoor and it became apparent by 10:00 am.  They kept getting pulled.  I must say by the time I arrived home I had to pull it out and do a quick shave  so the evening would go better.  I did throughout the day have to remove it to use the bathroom.  But immediately reinserted it.  I was to wear it all day.  I have to say I was a little raw back there by the end of the day and felt it for 2 more days.

Now Mistress has not told me if there will be any other days or times I will be using it.  However she did infer that I eventually will feel what it is like to wear the larger one.  Though I have not purchased that one yet.  I am sure it will be pink also.

Well till next week.

April 29th

Well I screwed up again by missing my blog deadline.  I have tried to beg for forgiveness from Mistress but all she asked is it done and then it must be done by Midnight.  I really have been trying to be good.  I have finally gotten my pink jeweled butt plug after some confusion with the company I ordered though.  I have my nipple stirrups, and the A's to hang from them.  I have been coming to attention when asked .  even if I am in the living room with others.  So I hope my good deeds don't get over looked in this.

I did have a fun session with Mistress.  She once again put me into trance and had me doodling on myself.  She also had me post to my fetlife profile a number of pics and a video.  I was shocked by all of it.  Mistress really has me wrapped around her finger when she wants to.  She is always making strides in my bimbo training.  I continue to wonder where it will go but then think who cares I want to be a bimbo and have fun. I also spent one day at work with bells hanging from  my nipple stirrups it was so much fun bouncing down the stairs or just jiggling my bewbs and listen to the ringing of the bells.  I even took pictures while at work to show Mistress.  We really never talked about it, i wonder if she was happy with me or not.  I t would be nice to talk about.  She also does not want me to just put the A's on.  I so want to hang them on and feel them.  Wonder how noticeable they will be with out a bra on.  Interesting I do think.

Well time to go and let Mistress know I have posted. Til next week.

April 20th

Well it has been an okay week this week.  Mistress made me present a couple of times when it was not the best time but I did present.  Mistress was very cool about it .  I believe we did have a session with Mistress.  It seems weird though because I really don't remember much at all about it.  I have however been working out really hard for Mistress and to have my surgery.  It has not been easy though.  I also have not been able to find the A's to hang from my stirrups.  I might just have to order them from online.

Well really not much to say this week.

April 13th

Well I once again did not get to play with Mistress.  Though I did have one opportunity but was lost by myself.  Mistress was not going to be available till later in the evening.  I had worked out with my trainer earlier that day and was quit sore and tired.  I could not stay awake and missed Mistresses request to train.  Normally we would train during the week so I was not ready even though we talked about it it was not for sure.

She continues to have me wearing my butt plug to bed which is getting easier.  I hope we will be able to train this week.  I am wondering if Mistress is just getting bored with me. 

I am now wearing my stirrups and have bought bells that I can hang from them.  I have not found the A's as of yet.

I still am waiting on my pink crystal butt plug.  I look forward to it.

Well till next week.

April 6th

Well this week has been a bit different.  Mistress really has not been available to me.  She did have me where my butt plug one night to sleep in.  I know she is pleased with my hair and I told her yesterday that I finnaly have my stirrps for my nipple piercings.  She seemed happy and was interested in looking at them.  But I stepped  away for a second to say good night to my subby.  We really were not having what I thought was a conversation but little notes back and forth with time in between the little blurbs  back and forth.  She then got mad at me  for not asking permission to stay good night to my subby.  I was trying to do it as fast as I could so that all my attention was on her.

As usual I was mistaken and was in trouble.  I have to now remember to ask permission to leave any conversation we are having no matter what. Which is fine but I did not know the rules or if I was told I had forgotten it.  I will have to get the Capital A's to hang from them.  I can't wait.  I also look forward to my pink crystal butt plug when it finnally arrives.  I sure hope to have a session with Mistress soon.  I hope she just is not bored with me and is just putting me off.

Well till next week.

March 30th

Well this week has been a strange one.  I had several very short conversations with Mistress.  She then would give me orders like wear my  spike bra for and hour.  Then I was to let her know I was removing it.  Then she instructed me to put my put my rope bra on tight.  Later she told me to sleep in it with my butt plug in.  In fact I have slept with it in four days in a row.  I must say it is getting easier to sleep with though.

Mistress then sprung on me that she is growing tied of our sessions and is going to change up what we are going to do.  I really thought she was enjoying them and now find out that she wants to change it.  I have no idea what she has in mind.  Though she is my Mistress and owner.  I have given her free range on how she trains me with  hypnosis.  I was trying to do what ever she wanted but there were times the execution was not the greatest.  Not that I was not trying, because I was trying just sometimes trying to do some of the things would have been easier to do to some one else than to one self.

I have ordered the pink jeweled butt plug that mistress wants me to have. I am going to give my piercer one more chance to get me my stirrups for my nipples otherwise I am going to order them online.

I must say I am concerned that Mistress is getting bored with me.  After all it is a long distance relationship.I have been trying harder to please her.  Though sometimes I'm not sure if I could please her no matter what.  However everyone has a bad day.  I guess I will see what the next few weeks will bring.  I am excited and scared at the same time.

Well till next week.

March 21st

Well I finally received some of Mistress's limited time last night and had some fun.  I believe Mistress is re-enforcing my bimbo transformation last night because I had a incredible orgasm just by smoking my bimbo stick.Well the evening began like most.   Mistress asked me about my hair and told her that it is to be done today.  That is all the blond will become pink.  I think she can't wait to see it. Then I asked if I could take some puffs of my bimbo stick and she allowed me the privilege.  I know she enjoys watching me but would prefer if it where real cigarettes.  Anyway the next thing I remember is waking up feeling incredibly bubbly, giggly, horny feeling very obedient and submissive and wanting to please Mistress.  But every puff of my bimbo stick was making me so horny.  I  was getting so incredibly horny as I was smoking my bimbo stick.  I so wanted a cock at the time but all I could do is self please myself. until I had incredible orgasm. then it wanted to start all over.  So I put down my bimbo stick.  Then Mistress gave me one final order to sleep with my butt plug in for the night.  Then I said Nighty Night and blew her some smoky kisses and began to get all horny and turned on again and had the most intense orgasm while I was fucking my asse with the plug before it remained in place for the night.  When I woke up this morning it was so wet back there.  I am  so hoping for more of a play session next time.  Don't get me wrong whatever Mistress did to y mind seems to have some very long lasting effects which is what I was hoping for when we started my training.

I hope I will get to talk again tonight with my new pink hair.  Otherwise till next week when we talk next.

March 16th

Well this week I really did not get to really do anything with Mistress again but that was probably my fault for being late with my blog last week.  We did talk a little this week. She did have me wear my rope bra to bed one night.  It did remind me who owns me though.

I am hoping for some play this week but who knows with her schedule still being stuck on days.  I do still however need to get my hair redyed pink because the color that my hairdresser used really did not take real well.  She is going to use a different brand and it should do it.

Well I hope this week is better.  Lets hope so anyway.

March 9th

Well it has been another week but this week Mistress had time for me, She has decided that it is time for a change in my hair color. The main portion of my hair will stay the same but the top portion will become pink.  This is to give me a more summer look.  Since I am a very fair skinned person and can not tan I am trying to stay a dark hair bimbo.  I have seen a picture of the look and it is very hot and look forward to it.  The hair extensions will be 26 inches quite long.

I have also been in touch with my body piercing place to find out what is going on with my Stirrups for my nipples.  It turns out that one of the techs there made a mistake in the size of my bars so they were having a hard time finding them.  They were suppose to contact me this weekend but have not.  so I will have to check in with them this coming week.

I also have to order my jeweled butt plug this week since I can finally afford it, Mistress is so happy about that.  I have a feeling I will be wearing it on No Panty Wednesday's for sure at the very least.

This week in my session with Mistress I think a suggestion did not work.  Mistress was not to happy or not want to talk about it.  I kind of know this because when our session was over they were on the sink but were not used.  The main thing I remember was that I was puffing a lot on my bimbo stick and was really feeling the effects from it.  During Southwest leather I had went out to get a liquid with nicotine for my bimbo stick.  So many of my friends were smoking I was finding myself wanting to ask for a cigarette that I decided to just get one bottle with nicotine and then go back down.  Well the stuff with nicotine was still in my bimbo stick and I was really feeling it in our session.  I also was really beginning to feel very girly girl, glammy. horny, sexy, needing to be obedient, and submissive, and a never ending desire to suck cock. These feelings since our session just continue to grow.  Ican't explain it and the giggling is making my subby wonder a little. 

I am also going to be in trouble.  I just realized it is after midnight which makes this post late.  Even though for me I still consider this Sunday until I go to sleep.  Which probably means I won't get any attention from Mistress this week.  Can't blame her just myself. Well till next week.

March 2nd

Well this week again kinda sucked .  Mistress seems to busy to have time for me or she just to busy with work.  She did talk with me for a few minutes hear and there.  She had me quote some phrases,  Pretty in pink no need to think, A Bimbo knows cravings grow.  The final one is Smoking will make a bimbos breast grow Mistress Alyssa says it is so.  Other than that we really have not talked except to comment on some photos.

I have joined just about every bimbo group on Fetlife and I also joined a number of enema groups.  I was hoping Mistress would comment on it but she has not.  So Thursday night I gave myself a enema with marshmallows and it was rather intense.  I told Mistress about it but she hardly commented on it.  It probably upset her me doing something by myself.

Well I hope this week will be better.  I feel so lonely with out her attention or training.  It keeps me engaged in my training.  She is really amazing how she gets into my mind and gets me on track with my bimbo training.

Lets hope this week will be better.  I am beginning to feel lost.

Febuary 23rd.

Well this week we still did not play much, I have been able to talk more with Mistress.  I still can't get these sayings out of my head.  Pretty in pink no need to think, A bimbo knows cravings grow,  and finally a bimbo breasts grow because Mistress Alyssa says so.  These sayings are constantly going through my brain.  They seem to go through more when a see a women smoking or I am puffing on my bimbo stick.

I have also introduced two new people to no panty Wednesday and having to prove to one that I was participating in it.  I did and they loved it and plan on doing it this week.

I have also begun to improve my body shape by beginning to work out at a gym with a trainer.  I also have been letting my nails grow out to improve the nail beds they were getting quit bad.  then I am going back to pink nail polish.  As for my hair I am going to need to replace my hair extensions soon at which time not sure what to do about color.  I'm sure Mistress will have some ideas. But I also need to think about hair health also.

Mistress has also got me thinking about have she will be moving along on my training after and article that came out this week where a bimbo who has used hypnosis to decrease her IQ.  So now what is Mistress is going to do.  I just want to be the best submissive bimbo I can be for her.

Till next week.

Febuary 16th

Well it was an okay week.  I still can not get a few things out of my mind. First being "Pretty in pink no need to think.".  The second thing is "Good girls know cravings grow".  They have been the two things mostly on my mind.

Mistress this week did a little training early in the week.  She had me wear my tack bra for a couple of hours.  She had me do some other things which I don't recall.  She insists that we did do training and I will have to agree.

I'm hoping the new week will bring some new ans exciting things both in training and play.

Febuary 8th

Well It was an amazing week for me and in my training. But my Mistress is going to be upset with me for not posting on time again.  I have the hardest time remembering to post on time.  I wish I had till the end of the weekend.  Fridays are so bad for me .  I am so tired after the long week at work.Then if I am up either early or late to talk with Mistress or play I am even more tired on Friday.

Well I am not sure what Mistress did with me on our session I don't remember much about it.  But there are two things I can not get out of my mind. The first is "Think of Pink, No need to think." It seems to pop into my head all the time.  Not sure why I can't seem to get it out of my mind.  It is really Strong and no way to forget it.  The second thing I am constantly thinking about is craving always grow.  The main cravings that seem to constantly grow are being submissive to Mistress and being totally obedient.  I am constantly thinking of doing everything possible to please Mistress's cock.  I also find myself giggling more.  In fact my own sub is wondering why but I don't care.  I really want to be the the best bimbo I can be for Mistress.  I also find myself wanting to redo my nails into all pink.

I must say at times I am feeling very ditzy.  I realize that it what a bimbo does at times but I don't seem to be able to really control it like before.  Mistress is so good to me.  I can't wait till my next training session to continue my training with her she is so amazingly sexy, dominant, and controlling.  All I want to do to is please her but find it very hard to do things on time.  I wish I lived closer to Mistress so I could please her even more.

Well till next week need to get to bed.  It is Sunday tomorrow and hope Mistress is not to upset with me.

Febuary 1st

Well Mistress is probably really mad with me.  She reminded me to do my blog last night and I agreed.  But then I became ill and had asked to be allowed to do it in the morning.  I however did not actually could not wait to hear from her. I had to run to the bathroom again. I then went back to my room and fell asleep.  I did not see anything from Mistress on my computer from her, but it was also froze up and I had to reboot it to do anything.Well it has been a few of weeks since I have posted and really have not done much until last week end.  Three weeks ago both Mistress and I were sick and not play happened.  Then the following week since we were both still recovering I made an assumption that I would get another free pass from blogging not the case.  I was in big trouble.  Well Southwest Leather Conference was coming up and was really excited with it that I let it slip again.  But I must say it was quite an experience.  Well anyway I am here now posting.

Well for Southwest leather I really did not have much real leather I could wear since it is rather expensive thing to own.  I also want to loose weight so footing the bill for leather does not make any sense.  I however decided I would try some new things this year.  The first was wearing some wigs.  I bought four but ended up only wearing two of them.  It was quite fun.  The all blond one was the first on Friday.  It gave me attention and people noticed.  However not all was positive but mostly.  The next day I wore a pink and baby blue wig with pig tails.  Now this one with a purple corset, lace skirt and boots went over very well.  I was getting all kinds of looks and compliments.   Even from some that did not like the day before look.  I also carried this look into the dungeon that night.  But I do have to say going to the bathroom in a corset and wiping oneself is not easy.  It was just and absolute fun weekend, I was flying till Wednesday of the following week.

Now that is it for now.  I will be back much sooner and talk about more details of the weekend.

January 10.2014

Jan 3rd.

Well it is another week and I did not get to play with or really talk with Mistress this week.  I did however talk with my sister.  She also has not been able to play with Mistress.  Ever since Mistress has been on this new schedule it sucks as far as talking with her or playing.  I really miss my time with Mistress messing with my mind and turning in to her bimbo play toy.  I guess she also was not to forgiving with my blog being late last week even though I was telling the truth.  But I can understand from her point of view.

Any way I sure hope this up coming week will be better.  It was nice to find out that my sister is also smoking but she is only smoking e-cigs.  which is what I am doing but I need to to get my operation.  Who knows if I will go back.  I know Mistress desire is that I do.  We will see I do enjoy them.

Well I hope Mistress is more talkative this week with me.  Till next week.